Sunday, December 31, 2006
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
I am still thinking about a present for my boyfriend. This is really difficult ... once again. But it is our first common christmas ... so dessous for us are an option.
When you have an idea for a present ... write me ;-)
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
But I have a much bigger project in background ... but I tell u when it is out.
From my private life I have to say: I am pissed. My dear boyfriend is away during the weeks, Cerapho is somehow busy with the university, and the girls ... nearly never saw them. None of the three. We are all pretty alone right now. Eating together is the only thing we do together. As I learn for my final exams right now I am pretty busy besides my job so for more excitement there is currently no big room. Hope it will get better after the exams in next spring. (With all the love in the spring this will happen !!)
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Anyway, real life is pretty boring. I am learning for my final exams and university lectures are on a low level. On the weekends I have spare time and even now on a friday night I am sitting here and writing.
I will continue posting about SL sex. Love it.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Anyway, todays entry is dedicated to a guy and now friend I met in there: Niels from Denmark. We made quickly friendship and I am pretty happy to have him in there. But there are many other I not mention today.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I visited Aron and Jessica at the weekend of September 16./17. in Vienna. Jessica had a lot of time for me. She is currently furnishing their rooms. We had a lot of fun. Aron was working whole the weekend but he brought us to some fine places in Vienna's center.
Working was hard. I had lot of extra work in a big project so I was pretty exhausted. I visited the Oktoberfest on September 27th and made friendship with an Aussie.
The weekend from October 1st till October 3rd was pretty awsome because I was alone with Raphael and we had some fun.
The week afterwards I was off and then the university started up again.
One thing to finish up the whole thing: I started SecondLife. What a time killer.
To the future: Hope I will post more often but it is pretty difficult as this is my last term and I haft to learn pretty hard for the finals....
Anyway ... kisses
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Anyway, I fetched him up in the street and convinced him to take me home. Luckily, his girlfriend was in Brazil so it was pretty easy to get him the way. I stripped and gave him a little show. We had some fun playing with each other before I sucked him dry. He made me compliments that night. It was fantastic. He even asked me why I am with Raphael. I answered him but reduced it to a language he understood: The size question.
Monday, September 04, 2006
Anyway, I miss him.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Two of the girls made a headstart and went nude within seconds. Beyond the shower it was a little bit weired ... I mean ... Showering after sport is something total different than doing it at home with/ahead/near/or around some guys you either had/will/want to have sex with. They are all in their 30s and a small cutie like I am with not a single scratch/hair/fat/etc. on my body is a big temptation for every red blooded male and honestly for most of the girls as well.
But there was not a single hardon.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
It was a hard goodbye. They started their moving van at 9am (he left me around 6am) and we all had to say bye. The whole flat was on their feets and afterwards all of us have been a little bit upset.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Friday, August 18, 2006
- Ultra short pleated skirt (this is very important .. just enaugh to cover the ass)
- Backless, bellyfree, sleaveless top (no bikini ... to cheap)
- Legs and pussy have to be shaved
That is it. Nothing more. You are AOS disqualified whe you are wearing anything below. Flip Flops are good shoes for this outfit but not so well seen at clubs. I think stilletos are somehow unsuitable. My tits and my ass are both big enaugh and the skirt is difficult enaugh to handle.
Why I describe you my AOS: Because it is my freetime outfit till Aron left us. Last night I gave him, Jessica, and some other guys a perfect view below the skirt for about 4 or 5 stations in the subway. He fucked me later in his bed, me still wearing everything. It is a cool fucking outfit.
Now I have to go to work.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
First Katsu and Ayaka, then Doris, and now Aron and Jessica. Damn. A year ago we have been many, now we are few. Who is left: Nikki, Nadja, Leandra, Cerapho, and Raphael. Not so many. Perhaps Frank is another one.
That is live. And live is a bitch.
Monday, August 14, 2006
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Anyway, I invited her over to our place for a chat. I have kissed her lately and pretty much knew, that she is bisexual. So we ended up fondling each other in the living room. She was not shy about that. Not at all. I called Leandra and she took over without any problem. She kisses her and seconds later they forgot the world around them. I walked over to her bedroom and put a condom on Ceraphos already hard member. We talked a second and then I walked over to her, blindfold her, and dived into her pussy. A few seconds later Cerapho pushed his dick into her in an instant act. She tried immediately to get rid of him but he fixed her. I removed the blindfold and saw her face: She was pretty angry. But excited on the same time. "That is a normal cock, lady." She cried: "He is to big for me. Pull it out." But Cerapho slightly started to fuck her. She interupted once again but Cerapho just continued. She cummed in minutes. "That was intense", she moaned. Sure intense. For her. It is a medium sized cock.
I pulled her up and I put this half-clothed girl into my bed and told the other to continue without us. We talked about it quite a time but fell asleep. Till Raphael came home around midnight. He woke me up and I convinced him to spoon her. He did it, and I have a video of her, waking up, and seeing the mix of face expression when he pushed his dick deeper in her delicate body. Raphael really enjoyed it. Due to one of my legs between hers it was pretty easy for him despite her tight body (but he is used to my tights so ...).
The next morning was hell. She was pretty confused, she was still angry, but on the other hand she had this afterglow. She was simply confused.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Monday, July 24, 2006
When I have done my first blowjobs I did not swallow but after a year this changed. First they forced me to do so, and then I did it by my own. I am now 25 and started sucking with eleven years. I swallow now more years than I did not.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
She told me that afternoon about an accident in her school. A boy about 12 years pulled her skirt down to her knees and exposed her shaved pussy to the world. Quite a few boys saw her pussy that day in clearity. But she did not care about that because it is just a rumor and she is still about a kind of female nerd. Have I ever told you that she is a Star Trek Fan?
Anyway, we had a lot of fun.
Monday, July 17, 2006
What happened? He called me today during a lecture. I immediately went to his hotel and met with him and two other girls (models). Francesco was cool with me, but the girls treated me like shit. I was no match to this beauties and their clothes. I was in my university clothes and sweat was all over me. Francesco was luckily aware of that and whispered me, that they behaviour will change when I drop clothes. And he was right. I first draw nude and they have been silenced. Francesco made me compliments and he was right. In the last two years my body changed. It went overall pretty hard (thanks to my sport and fucks without end) and therefore my ass and my tits have a much better profile than before. And my fucking capabilities went straight to heaven. At least he told me that.
It was fun. Two hours of sex (w/o the girls). But afterwards he told me that this is his goodbye tour and he quits his job in a few months and from that day on he will stop travelling in the world. Anyway. He dropped me a lettercase and said, that this is for me and I should open it later.
Now is later and next to my laptop is money. This motherfucker paid me off. He wrote that I was one of his best (in the last years ;-)) and I should use the money to study another year or have some fun with it. For a girl which spent less than 20 days with him this is an incredible paycheck. Incredible. I do not know how I am currently feeling about the fact that he paid me. God I take the money but ...
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Friday, July 14, 2006
The result: Big cocks does not matter.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Monday, July 10, 2006
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Last summer I met Leandra for the first time. Now she is our bitch. Cerapho and Leandra are now sharing Doris former room but they are not a couple so far. Cerapho is not able to love anybody currently. He still misses Doris. Leandra on the other hand ... I think she is waiting. And in the meantime she is fine-tuning herself on Cerapho. She is optimizing her fucking capabilities on her own for half a year now and she is doing well. Aron and Raphael are fully convinced of her ;-). Unlike me she totally dislike one-night-stands so she is fucking only the guys who fucked her before except of Martin. Which is in my eyes not the perfect way to improve your sex life. With most of your ONS I make my own show but sometimes they teach me something what I would have never learned otherwise.
There are ten or twenty guys who are openly admiring Leandra but Martin and his actions convinced her to stay alone. I have heard rumors about her fame. She seems to be Mrs. First Price for many guys in her environment. Open-minded, funny, sexy, attractive, and not a bitch (in their view ...) makes her perfect girlfriend material. But she is resisting everybody.
Friday, June 09, 2006
Risky. And today was not a good start for the bet. 4:2. Two blowjob for this freak. Anyway. At least we had some sun these days.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
First I worked for hours till late in the afternoon but then Raphael came home and we started one of our late sex sessions. I bought him a cockring a few weeks ago and so his monster is really hard and that for hours. During that session I can have dozens of orgasms while Raphael still stand his first shot. Unfortunately, he and the other guys complaining about pain in the penis afterwards so it is for special days only. Today was one of these special days. But after a hour Nikki disturbed us: The party was starting. We totally forgot the weather: It was rainless and warm outside. We opened his ring and I sucked him off.
When we joined the party after our showers but it was pretty obvious that we just fucked. They nearly forgot the meat over the discussion how much fucked my smile was. God damn I was post-orgasmic
Friday, May 26, 2006
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Kathrin is my youngest sister and will go 18 in a few days. She is a really cute girl (like all of us). But she is as well the youngest sister of us. And therefore her mental state is different ;-). Two years ago we argued about sexual partners. Her opinion has not changed in this time. She still things, that a girl should have as less as possible partners (at least in public). She is still with her first boyfriend. He is cute but not extraordinary and for me he is a looser. I mean she is totally in command and she told me, that she has betrayed him with 5 guys. And she always did it far away from Starnberg. She had a one-night-stand last year with a guy at Berlin and two years ago she fucked two guys at Mallorca. She did not tell me about the other three. She sometimes called me a whore when we talk about my sexual life, but for me she is the whore. A cheating whore.
It was the first time for me I enjoyed a party of her. My parents left the house and flew to Hamburg for a musical so she organized a big party. Surely about 50 people and all of them in her age. For my sisters and brothers, their associates, and me it was like a flashback in a good old time. Boys and girls flirting all the time, kissing, giggling, searching a room, fucking behind close doors, and finally a deflowered girl. It was very late and we all had drunken far too much so I end up with a couple who was admiring me. He told me, that when he was 13 I was his dreamgirl. He told me everything about my bikini I wore at that time I farely remember. And the girl told me that I was an idol for her and a lot of other young girls. Crazy. We joked around and when Raphael pulled me up (about 3 o'clock in the morning) I invited them into our room (if they open enaugh for that). But they were not.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Why I wrote this? After a pretty looser yesterday, I am happy to have a workable booty call online. I will fuck him tonight. Firstly I fucked him a year ago on April 1st. He was awsome but I told him it was the worst fuck I ever did. For April 1st fool. In the end we laughed a lot and from that day we have been together all three month or so.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
So the lake is gone. Last year I have been there just a few times. No problem for me neither. I like my Feringasee so I will not miss this lake very much.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
It was a kind of reunion with three other couples and two solo guys so it was like: What have you done the last five years and so on. It was a weekend full of private fun. Raphael was untouchable in two ways for these guys: Firstly, he was the former nerd of this group and therefore unworthy for the girls or for any kind of friendship action, but today he is untouchable because of me: I am proud to announce that I am the hottest chick around. It was funny because we both knew it. He laid back and had surely some thoughts how stupid assholes these guys are while I did everything to make the scenery even hottier.
On friday night after the first introduction, the host showed us the rooms. We shared a holiday flat with another couple so we shared the bathroom and had two rooms next to each other. So I was loud just to show them that we are more than just close friends. I did not scream that much but the bed was as old as my dead grandma. In the morning when both of them have finished their stay in the bathroom I urged Raphael to let the door open, so that it was impossible to overview my naked glory in the bed. And it worked.
On saturday we made a little trip around the village which took some time. It was boring and Raphael ignored me when I tried to seduce him into the forrest and have a quicky with him. On the other hand it was to cold to have some real fun. We returned to the hotel in the late afternoon and we had some spare (and for our part: sex) time. And I am pretty sure, that we had an voyeur. Atop of us below the roof there have been noises. And noises in an (what I expect) empty roof are suspicious. And I know: There are holes in these old old houses and the boys of the family surely know them. And in this family are three adult sons and four teenager boys (and one girl).
Saturday night was full of alcohol. I had to promise not to think about a threesome (not even with the 16 year old daughter of the house). But I kept my promise and we laughed a lot.
In the night was a little accident: I had to empty my bladder so I entered the bath undressed like I have been. Someone tried to open the door (I NATURALLY locked it before .... In that environment) but did not keep trying. I left the bathroom and fell - pissed like I have been - into the hands of our room-neighbour. I laughed but he was shocked about my nakedness. I entedred my room without saying something very useful and during that his eyes nearly exploded. I was a little curious but then I understood: It was not my ass but Raphaels property: "Never played any sports with him?" I asked him closing the door. "He never showered with us. We expected it was shyness." I went into cruel mode: "Perhaps he has been afraid of you and your friends. Goodnight, I have to use that tool now." I slammed the door and Raphael woke up ;-).
Sunday morning was quiet except of the church bells less than hundred meters of our rooms. We had a short interlude before lunch and after that we dismissed ourselves into our trip home.
I write this lines on my new mobile. It is a PDA Mobile combination and an keyboard as a slide on the left side. A perfect girl tool. If you are in bags because you need to carry them. No problem because I droped my MP3 player, my old cell, my address book, and the calendar for that tool. Very cool tool. A little bit ugly because it is pretty big in any dimension but in everything else it is fantastic. Hey what do you expect: I am still not a girly type but a student of a computer science.
Thursday, April 27, 2006
This girl is crazy ... or I am. No I am not.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Today was different. We have been late, I have been to hot, I fucked him in/on his car for an hour immediately before we entered the club. A guy shot a photo not 15 minutes after we have been in. His photo surely not only contained pink pixels but also some white. I do not like the idea of my freshly fucked pussy on somebodies mobile. I have no problem with the dozen hardcore tapes and hundreds of pictures of me in sexual activity but when somebody shot a picture below my skirt I want to be fresh and beautiful and not heavily fucked.
Monday, April 17, 2006
We had that threesome till early in the morning. During breakfast she told me, that she never had one and commited as well that I was her first "real" girl.
Friday, April 14, 2006
He left me an hour later still unfucked so I masturbated and finally cummed. I feel asleep and woke up by a dick which was shoved between my closed legs. Raphael hit my spot right away and even entered me so I slightly lifted my ass and allowed him to fill me up. It was awsome. He laid himself on my back and slided his hands between the lounger and my tits. He was rough and hard, and even when I playfully tried do escape there was no way that he let me go.
It is about 10pm I am still laying in my jacuzzi. I fucking great day. Sun without end and awsome sex with my boyfriend. His jizz is still pouring out of my pussy or is swimming with me. A fucking great day.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Monday, April 03, 2006
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Now it is three hours later. Two girls left the party, one is sleeping in the living room, and one is fucked by Cerapho and Doris.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Thursday, March 30, 2006
It was not a threesome. It was a heavy fuck. I have seen her seldom in that kind of arousal. She moaned, she screamed, and fucked him dry. They did not stop for a minute. He had five or six orgasms and when she stopped after three hours because of her soar pussy, we kissed a little bit. "He is so fucking good. Ride him is so fantastic. He is so small." He took my shoulder and pushed me away and asked her: "I am small." She was giggling. "No honey, you are just smaller than Aron. And let me say you: Aron is too big. No girl is able to ride him, most girl have pain fucking him but you are so perfect."
Nothing to add here.
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
A month ago, Aron started with it, and whenever I have worn a jeans or trousers in any kind they pulled me over to them by slipping a hand behind my waistband into my slip. It is kind of intimate and I like it. They touch me anywhere so they could do this as well.
Why I am writing this: Today on a party a guy was chatting with me and I was pulled away by Aron that way. I rejected and fighting him a little bit so the guy had a long time to peek into the opening gap. I waited for him to look into my face before I submitted to Aron and literaly flew over to him.
Friday, March 24, 2006
I talked with Cerapho today. He is not very happy about that. She is a very serious girlfriend for him but he also knew, that this timeframe will break their relationship. Doris has changed a lot in the past year. She went from this girl the next door type into this "business woman with sexual attraction" type. Cerapho never "betrayed" her and she did so as well. She has learned a lot from the openess Nikki and I are living. If this is good ... we will see.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
It was late in the night in a subway station. We hide behind some escalator while we waited for a subway. He pressed me against the wall and fucked me with his - luckily big enaugh - equipment below my skirt. It did not take long but it was fantastic. He was scared like hell and afterwards it was pretty complicated - for him. Putting his still erect penis back into the trousers. Big dicks have some disadvanteges.
Later in the subway I lifted my skirt several times but then I had to stop because of some friends who stepped into the subway car.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Sunday, March 12, 2006
It is okay. Let us see how he will take it with the time.
Friday, March 10, 2006
When I pinned our HIV test to our Aids board he was slightly confused. Then I pointed to the entry of Leandras new test and I think he began to understood.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Continue with the female gender and why I am writing this today: I love virgin bodies. I do not like piercings, I do not like tattoos, and I do not like bruises (Leandras body is my reason to write). I often thought about a piercing here and there but always it ends with my wish to have an unmodified body. I love shaved bodies, I love hard not to big tits, and I love a slender form. I love all that at my own body and expect this from other girls. What I expect sexual: Do not be shy with your body. Be Nikki not Doris.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
This morning was funny. Leandra my darling is currently using my shower because every other shower in the house is normally occupied by two person. Anyway. She knocked this wonderful saturday morning at my door and I just cried "Come in". I was a cowgirl at that time. She was suprised, he was red. I lend myself back and looked into her eyes: "Go on, take your shower." In this moment he cummed.
Whe she came back after her shower I told her to stop. And I saw in her face that she understood. I left the bed leaving him back alone stepping behind her. I asked him: "Do you want to see her naked?" He nodded. She nodded. It was funny. I stripped her and then immediately took her clitoris. "See this piercing. A real clit piercing. No hood, it is the clitoris." I pushed her on the bed. "Take her. Touch her. Everywhere." I joined them in the bed. He was afraid (... of me ...) but she behave like I want it: Like a passive toy. It took five minutes for him to get used to this nude toy. "Leandra, give him a massage." She did it. When she finished with his breast meat I said to her: "Take a condom and take it over his penis. I am horny now" She did it. But he cummed the first time. The second time he had an hardon like I have not seen for months. I went towards the door: "Fuck him Leandra." I went into the kitchen, took a glass of orange juice, drank it, and returned to my room." Leandra was no longer atop. She was fucked from behind.
It was nasty. They are still fucking while I use my laptop to enter that lines. It did not take long for him to do nasty things in my presence. That is good.
Friday, March 03, 2006
Anyway... he is leaving the shower and soon I will be fucked by him ... again.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
I talked with Leandra later and she apologized and asked me if we can continue my game with her. I love that idea.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Jessica just stepped out of the shower. It is time.
It is saturday morning and I am back home. It was difficult to climb the stairs but ... anyway ... I am in love
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
I left him early in the morning (damn I have to work) and wrote my mobile number across his breast. He called me during the day in my office. I was red like a tomato when he told me that he really enjoyed our last night and hoped that I enjoyed it as well. We met later in a cafe and he told me a little of his life. He is a 28 years old engineer who is working at BMW and lost his last girlfriend a year ago (he had only 5 girls in his life .... a virgin). He was impressed by my own history. I told him about my french cutie, my lesbian tendencies, and whispered him about my sexual openess and did everything else necessary to make him clear, that I am his sexual dream. In the end I gave him a goodbye kiss and hoped he took me with him but he did not.
Now I am horny.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Anyway. Poor amateurs.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
God. Afterwards he licked me.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Later I told them about my clique and our sexual relationships. I talked them in a dreamy state. They have been amazed and told me, that we are very lucky that this is working.
And the hell, we are lucky
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Yesterday happened another thing: My father visited me. It was funny. I was still in the tub when he entered. Nikki called me from my room door and guided him into the room. He was shocked when he realized that I was in the bathroom and especially in the tub. I pleased Nikki to leave us (she was smiling like a litte bitch ... she is). I was not sure about my nakedeness. But when my dad turned around and wanted to leave with a red face I immediately knew what to say: "Dad, come over here. I am just your naked daughter". He answered: "I do not know". I laughed and pressed my tits through the surface: "Do not be silly. Sit down". It was funny. He was shy like a thirteen year old boy. We talked for a few minutes and he continuesly tried to avoid to have a look at my tits. He always liked them but has never seem them naked. Anyhow. I left the tub and took a towel to dry myself. When my body was dry I went over to him and said him: "Dad, take a look of my body. Please." I sat down left of him. I begged him. Then I was mean: "Dad, I took all my courage to show you my naked body. Now you are ignoring it. You dishoner me." That was enaugh. He had a look at my body. He accepted it. We talked about my tits and my stomach. He once again complemented me that I look like my young mother. I stood up and dried my hair. He walked around a little bit and stood aside of me. Then he asked me what is about the LAYAspot. A men in his age cannot know. "What is that?" I demonstrated it to him quickly. After that he was a tomato. After I put on my slip he relaxed. Five minutes later I was dressed. I went with him to a local cafe.
The last words of him: "You have a nice ass cutie"
My last words: "It is your (genetical) ass"
Thursday, February 09, 2006
I already had my orgasm with the tools but I am really looking forward for the next hours ;-).
Sunday, February 05, 2006
She is still very shy and was never very interested in our orgies, but when Katsu or anybody else asked her for sex she immediately obeyed.
She told me once that Katsu is not able to give her an orgasm with his dick. She is as tight as I am but I always cummed several times when he fucked me. For me he is an orgasm garantee but not for her. She never told me but she prefered us girl instead of the guys in terms of sex. Surely she enjoyed their dicks (due to our tightness they are all big to us) but I have seen her cumming due to Arons dick and due to Nadja tongue in a close distance. On the other hand she was so shy about the topic lesbian love.
Katsu had a great time on Jessica, Nadja, and myself (Nikki and Doris have not been available for this party) and he cummed twice in every one of us. But then he fell asleep. We went to their empty bedroom and saw something incredible. She was serving Aron. I have seen a lot of girls fucking around, I have seen Ayaka, I have seen Ayaka atop Aron, I have seen Ayaka below Aron, but her being in a state of total submessiveness was new. Aron moaned. Aron never moaned that loud anytime I have heard him before. Incredible.
We played with each other till they finished their fuck. Aron stood up, walked three steps and broke down due to week knees. I was shocked. Ayaka layed between us and sat up and smiled. She kissed me and soon after we fucked. Jessica and Nadja left us soon and helped Aron into the living room.
She really tried it but homesexual love is not her profession. At least I cummed.
Now it is shortly before midnight. I have to go to bed.
Saturday, February 04, 2006
This morning I wake up between five very well trained perfect guys. I stood up and laid myself in an armchair, start to play with myself, and continue to watch the show. A perfect view. When I cummed (with a little bit noise) one of them (the guy who denied sex with me yesterday) woke up and we fucked in the bathroom. He somehow changed his mind. He told me that he is a married man and his wife allows him a gay relationship. And not with a girl, and in special not with a girl who is twenty years younger.
Breakfast was like the fucking last year. They all just wear boxer shorts and I was dressed in one of my hottest dessous sets but they did not care. I was fuck meat and nothing else.
And I enjoyed it.
Friday, February 03, 2006
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Monday, January 30, 2006
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Another thing what hurts is crazy: Currently I am a workaholic. I stopped my studies for now and I have worked about 90 hours in the last week. About ten hours a day in the office and the rest of the time on the desk in my room. Cerapho once entered the room and even invaded my slip but I was dry like hell. Since my last post I have not fucked. That is good so far but according to Cerapho I lost some flair. No question to that as well. For Cerapho a fuck with me is a fuck with a gorgeous girl (his comment) but a gorgeous girl who do not care if she is gorgeous like I do currently (his comment) is not a nice view. I am hairy. For a girl with a sexual proudness regarding her body like me this should not be possible. Anyway I do not care about it. My pussy is my last problem. Sex is not important.
Tomorrow is my birthday. I think I will try stay till midnight in the office.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Negative: Sex is currently the easiest way to get rid of my depression. I had sex with five men within four days. For a few hours life seems to be good to me. But the next morning it is even worsier. But that's not all. Martin fucked me today and told me, that he will not allow Leandra to continue to be my fuck toy.
Monday, January 09, 2006
I think it will take a few months.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
I had a lot of sex with a lot of different men in a lot of different states. I often had sex with guys unwillingly. After the night they often came back and want to fuck. I say ten times no but the tenth time I usually say yes. I am not very strong around this topic, neither in my brain nor in my body. When you pick me and guide me with a strong hand you can do anything with me. If I want it or not. It was more than once that I easily could have declared it as rape. But honestly: I love rough sex and with the orgasm the offense is past. I know them and I understand them and for me it is so easy to satisfy them. But being fucked while you are in a state of semi-unconscious that is not fair. But I cannot remember my "No", and additionally I was hurt by Mariane and this french sucker which made her a belly. So I think it was not much which was necessary.