Thursday, May 30, 2002

Jessica knows .... nothing

A few minutes ago, I met Jessica. She asked me why I am so red in my face, but I did not tell her anything about Aron. She told me about Aron, and how good he was in bed the last few days. I cannot believe how easy she talks about sex with me. It it damn easy for her, but not for me.

God, what have I done

Tuesday, May 21, 2002


I feel so worse. The events of last night should never happen again. I gave a blowjob to my best friend boyfriend. Out of my free will. How could this happen?

I am so ashamed.


I was out with my dick dream tonight. I speak of Aron, Jessicas boyfriend. To go out with him, with or without Jessica, is pretty simple. He is a nice guy and we had a lot of fun. He tease me with his bulge in his trousers, I tease him back with my body. This game started in the sauna and has got more and more dangerously every time we met. He knows about my affection to his dick - I have never made any secret of it - and I know very well about his looks at my body. Till know this game was innocent. A slap on our butts or a too long hug were the highest game prices.

But this night was different. I know that Jessica was not able to come with us and start to prepare for a night with Aron and his dick. I dressed tight trousers, a bra and a sheer, belly-free black top and nothing else. Later in the disco we danced for hours till early in the morning. I love his breast (he is very athletic) and his bulge so we danced very narrowly. But then the problem starts. I first realized when it was too late. His hand grapped deep in my ass and pressed my body more and more against him. I felt his uneasiness: His dick was hard in a tight jeans. And I know, this is bad for a guy. But for us both it was much worsier. I was horny, he was horny, so he took me up, carried me into a stall of the mens toilet and freed his penis in front of my eyes. I have never seen him hard so I just stared at him. He took my hip, turned my around, slip down my trousers and start to shove his dick into me. But then my brain remembers Jessica and I stood up and told him stop. As a nice guy in heat he is, he just grumbles and took a step back. I rose his hands from my hips to my breasts (a good place to occupy boys) and press my belly against his cock. "What's up?", I asked him, "this is not okay", I told him. " Then he told me that he wants to fuck me from the first day he saw me. "Okay", I told him and asked him: "I am alone for a year now, I am attracted by your body and I have no boyfriend. Where has been your problem?" "I love Jessica." "A good topic", I asked him, "what is about her? You nearly raped me tonight." I closed my trousers again and he stand there in front of me with his hard dick. "It is a game we play Aron, nothing real. I will never fuck you, if you are the boyfriend of Jessica. And I never fuck you, if you broke her heart." He tried to pack his penis into his trousers but was not very successful. I took his penis in my hand again and ask him: "Do you understand" He told me yes, and I asked him: "Should I help you with this problem?" His eyes got wide. "I have told you not to fuck me. A short blowjob is no fuck." For me it was the first blowjob since Frank, for Aron it seems more than good. My blowjob skills are not bad, at least what my blowjob partners told me. I swallowed his cum a few minutes later. A hour later I was at home. I have to thought about what happened.


Sunday, May 19, 2002

A good day for my heart

Cerapho visited me today. He will leave the army in two weeks and just want to warm up our friendship. We were out and had a lot of fun together. The army has not changed him very much. Good he has this story fable like every other guy who went to the army, but this is not bad. Tell me horny, but I like this guy everytime a bit more.


Tuesday, May 07, 2002


Today is a bloody day. I am girl with a lot of luck. And my cycle is part of my luck. Compared to the complains of other girls I am free of pain during my period. Why I tell you that in this blog? Because it is part of my life. To be honest: On my period I am a bit bitchy. My two ex boyfriends had to stand a lot during these days. Especially the first one. He was 15, I was 14. During our two years of relationship he had never managed the days in his small brain. I deny sex with him during the period and we had a lot of problems due to it. The second boyfriend Frank, my current last one, did not care much about my objections and just fucked me. I denied it just one time.